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I hate waking up in the morning and realizing that my family is broken and estranged.  It's an awful feeling, and I don't know how to fix it.  My younger brother sometimes asks my mom why I don't love him, which is gut wrenching and I don't know how he could possibly think that.  And then throughout the day I'm plagued with poisonous thoughts of my older brother not loving ME, and it all snaps into focus.     I hate the fact that my older brother and I don't know a thing about each other.  My worst fear is that someday he's going to get hurt, and I won't know.  He's going to move, and get married, and have kids, and I won't know.  He's goin

"Don't do this anymore!" She was hissing. I was still gazing out at the sea of gray, hopeless faces from where we stood above them on the balcony, "I'm stuck..." I rasped painfully, licking my bleeding lips with a barren tongue.  My skin began to blister deliciously in the heat rising from their writhing bodies below. Her eyes flashed cerulean and Her face was suddenly very close to mine, "Listen to me.  He's not there.  He's never been there." But still I could not rend my weeping eyes from their agony.  "Help me," I begged The Woman, "Oh God, please, I can't - " And then the heat became to much and I was screaming wretchedly, my pale, fr

My heart had been pounding for the better part of the day, and I don't really know why.  It's starting to get painful. Possible Contributors: 1. The fact that my Want to get into Northwestern is so great that it is now taking over my biology. 2. The imposing mountain homework that I now have two real days to complete. 3. The not knowing if I'm going to see my family this weekend or not. 4. The not knowing if I was supposed to finish my experiment this afternoon. 5. The loss of my brother's number.  This is awful, and I stayed up all night thinking about it. 6. The possibility of deeply hurting one of my close friends by going after som